Musings of a Thirty-something
March 13, 2009 by hames-1977
Somebody asked me if it is true, that my age is way past 30’s. I just told them the truth, nothing less. Maybe it’s just a way to amuse me further, when they thought I am just 26 or something. But really, inside me is just so younger than what my real age is. I believe that even if we age, one must try to keep a youthful attitude towards an inspiring life.
But folks, I am also into thinking sometimes. It is only roughly eight more years before I reach the 40’s. Don’t misconstrue that I am experiencing some mid-life crisis. I am just trying to think ahead and be wise about the decisions I have to take in the future.
Things now are uncertain, but I would like to push myself into realizing the artistic pursuits which I am always aspiring to do. I would pursue more frequently my writing. I would pursue more frequently my painting. I would pursue learning music most especially playing piano. Or maybe, I would get myself involved into the academic work or consultancy work. Or on a more grander scale, I would do missions work or to be with an NGO group.
Some may think that the things I hope for the future are too ideal. Unprofitable and would not generate any substantial monetary investment for me. Which partly is true, but I have learned not to trust too much on these things. I still abide to put my trust in God, who knows much more than I am, and the One who knows about the future that I have to take.
I am optimistic that eight years before the 40’s is much a life ahead. There’s just so much more things that can happen. I would only strive to pick or select the things which matters and inspiring me to be thankful of the years passing. But on the other hand, I too myself, is being realistic, in the sense that I do not know until when will I have to live more. Nobody knows. So I try not to attach myself on things. Because things are just passing. It can be lost. It can fade to obscurity.
What matters most, is that I have lived a life that is fulfilling and enriching. That I have given myself selflessly to a worthy cause which imparts love, compassion and commitment to others. That I have inspired others to live life on simple terms and have faith to the One who is omniscient of all.